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laxed and thoroughly enjoyed the remainder of the meeting. very heart-warming to see that there were some real women present too who were understanding and accepting. I always enjoy their presence at the meetings. I admire the qualities that women possess and hope that I'm expressing some of them now and will express more as I acquire more insight. I've taken a certain pride in Nancy and have done my best to perfect her makeup, dress and mannerisms and make her as authentic as possible.

Another "first" which I'll always remember was my first public appearance right out in the midst of people. I've always had the desire to go out in public, not for vicarious pleasure, but to see if I would be accepted as I appeared to be, just another woman shopping, strolling, going to the movies, etc. You can imagine how thrilled I was when a woman friend said she would take me out. She even let me wear her beautiful fur coat. Here finally was my opp- ortunity. It was during the Christmas holiday season and we drove up to Hollywood Boulevard which, as it is every Christmas, was dec- orated with beautiful displays and lights. As it was Sunday we walked several blocks window shopping. I was rather nervous at first but when I realized that people were just casually noticing me I began to feel natural. I enjoyed looking in the windows at the pretty clothes and shoes without feeling self-conscious. I'll always be extremely grateful to her for enabling me to have this experience of public acceptance which to me is above and beyond any other phase of TV behaviour. On our next trip she took me to one of the larger department stores where I had a very delightful time shopping. I could hardly believe I was doing those things.

With all this I didn't see how my life could be enriched fur- ther until I was presented with the ultimate for an FP. The chance to live in a house with a couple who would allow me to dress when- ever I wanted to and be known to their children only as Nancy. I could arrange my room in a feminine mode and hang up my clothes in my own closet instead of packing them away as I had been doing for years. I accepted the offer feeling rather unique because perhaps I'm the only FP so blessed. The children only know me as a girl and accept me as such. (Of course I work as a man, but I am always Nancy on weekends when they are home from boarding school.) I also assist in some of the housekeeping here as I wish and have time for ironing, defrosting the refrigerator, bringing in groceries, etc.

The lady of the house, who is understanding and has a special

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